Last night, my phone rang: I have a new message. I was anticipating for an SMS from someone who hasn’t been texting to me for quite a while already. When I opened my inbox, it was a number I didn’t know (the number was not in my phonebook). Clicking on it, it read:
Alo0..gud eve..******* hRe..pkiSve nlng my #..ma0 njud ni aq gmt0n..tnx..God blesS. 🙂
For those who doesn’t speak my dialect, it can be paraphrased like this:
Hello..good eve…******* here…please save my number…this will now be the one that I will be using. Thanks. God bless.
Well, what can you say?
Oh, I forgot, ******* is the one I was talking about. She’s my ex-girlfriend. I mean, we’re fine, and we’ve been communicating once in a while.
Now, having a new number and broadcasting it to friends is not something to fuzz about—normally, but there are things that can be pondered upon when it comes to someone whom you had a relationship with. Often times, when a relationship ends not so smoothly, the options there are to keep in touch and not to. And that’s what made me think when she gave me her new number. Not that I’m worthless anymore, I think she has the prerogative of doing away with me for good or not.
Of course, she’s still important to me. We had been friends for quite a time before we had a relationship and our friendship was “restored” after we settled some issues after the breakup, but I nonetheless cannot claim such rights so as to keep in contact with her.
But it doesn’t mean that the world is peachy then. Throughout the course of our ex-girlfriend/ex-boyfriend friendship, we had been conversing with matters about our past relationship, our feelings, about love, courtship and whatnot, which I think doesn’t sound good, right. We even delve into heated (SMS) discussions about these once in a while. So much for getting over or moving on, huh?
That makes OPTION B (not to communicate) more choosable. The catch is, she gave me her new number!!!
With me eyeing on a “new prospect” and many other things to do, she continuing to communicate with me is something that quite bugs me.
Of course, I could not help but think that she still has that determination to continue to communicate with me. Any further implication, I leave that to her (I don’t want to think about that—yet). It appears that she still wants me to be on her side in her ‘singleness’ journey, doesn’t it? Hmmm… Or perhaps, (let’s make it a little bit lighter) she might think that if she doesn’t give me her new number now and have something to tell me some other time, and receives a “Who is this, please” SMS from me, the situation might be quite uneasy for her.
Now, just as any other discussion I make, I confess that there may be pitfalls in my line of thinking concerning any topic at any given time. That is why I’d love to hear your thoughts about this. Please leave your comments. Thanks.